Finally...test results...

Friday, November 10, 2006

Current mood: crushed Category: Life First off.....this baby has been confirmed to be another boy.......so i guess i will not name him Daisy.... the amnio also confirmed the diagnosis of "FULL trisomy 13".....i was hoping to find out that it was partial....but no such luck..... now for the ultrasound results: the good news.....there was not any brain abnormality detected.....the baby's growth is right on track.....exactly where it should be....and all in proportion....the head, abdomen, and legs were all measured....and the results are accurate with my dates... there weren't any problems noted with abdominal organs....the kidneys, liver, digestive system, etc...all seem fine....but will be checked out again later as the baby gets bigger..... so that is awesome.... now for the not so good news....there appears to be a facial abnormality...concerning close set eyes.....cleft palate or lip was not detected....but cannot be ruled out yet....skeletal wise though the skull and body is good..... the back of the baby's neck seems to be a bit thicker than normal....but does not cause any medical concerns... the abdomen appears to have "mild hydrops"--which means that there is a bit of excess fluid built up in the abdomen.....from where....don't know....and i don't know if this can be treated....or what that means prognosis wise....so a bit of concern there...... now for the worst news.... the baby's heart seems to be quite malformed....i won't go into detail.....it is too hard to discuss just yet....but if this cannot be ruled out with further testing....then I know that this time i have now with my tiny son is all there is.... so i am really, really sad about that.....let's hope and pray that these results are not accurate.... i want a fetal echocardiogram performed....(more precise ultrasound on the fetal heart....performed by a specialist in this area).....but i will have to wait and find out if that will be recommended by the geneticist that i am supposed to speak with in the near future....she is in Ottawa....and wants to set up a teleconference with the little guy's dad and I..... I am going out of my mind right now...... actually i should correct that and say....we are going out of our minds right now....for circumstances too many to get into....dad and I are not able to be together right now.....but he does care....and loves this little guy as much as i do.....it has been a difficult past few months for us...but we are going to try and figure some things out.....i know that i have been pretty much "closed lip" about him....and only writing based on my point of view...but please do not assume that this baby has no dad....he certainly does.....please wish us luck....this is so difficult....for both of us..... so there you have it.....i wish i could have told you all some really wonderful news...but the best news i have right now is that i have this beautiful little boy inside of me....living....because of me....and that is a wonderful feeling....i can feel his little feet dancing as i sit here right now.....i love him so much...... i will also be updating my other site..... www.livingwithtrisomy13.org... prenatal diagnosis family...."Baby Roy"....now that i know the sex....and this latest news....there are already ultrasound pics there....and a little blurb about my journey so far....i have met so many moms...and they continue to support me daily....it is wonderful...... thank you all for being patient with me....and for all your comfort and support.....it really does help me....to hear from you all....your words encourage me to get through another day.....another week..... please understand if i don't reply promptly....i really am trying.....but this latest news is really leaching the happy out of me.... so now the wait continues.....